I've struggled with whether to post this. I've written it, deleted it, written again, saved the draft, and I think I have to just post it. So I don't want to get into details cause I don't really feel comfortable airing all of my personal info out there for the world to see, but I need as much prayer as I can get. Let me start off by saying that physically, we are all fine. We are all healthy. I love my husband and my son dearly and until almost 2 weeks ago, I was completely, blissfully (and apparently obliviously) happy. Our family may not be a family much longer and I am devastated. I am holding on with blind faith that somehow we will make it through this. I love him so much and am lost as to what to do. All I know I can do is go on living life and taking care of precious Gibson as best I can and trying to shield him from this pain. It is so hard not to be angry and bitter. I dont have a reason and none of this makes any sense to me. I have received endless support from family and friends... I am truly lucky to have all of you in my life! I love my husband and I desperately want it to work out... I want our family, our life we had planned... I want to grow old with him! Please pray for my family!!!